I know that I really don't have control over what happens in my life. Ultimately, it's up to God. I know that but I'm human so I wonder sometimes, why. Why do certain things happen and why do they happen when they happen? What about things you can't take back? I don't regret anything in my life, although I know I've made mistakes, but there are a few things I'm tired of.
I am tired of feeling like my body is out of my control. I'm a mom and I always put myself last. Always. I'm the last to eat dinner, the last to go to bed most nights and I rarely treat myself to things that I want or sometimes need. Well, I want to feel strong, fit and healthy again so I will take control of my body. I would like to do the Nike Women's Marathon next October again. I had such an amazing time the two previous times I ran it and well right now I want to feel like that again. So to start I've joined Weight Watchers (again.) In three days all ready, I feel better and I know I am making better food choices. I've started training. Meaning I'm out walking right now and I have a physical therapy appointment this weekend to work out some kinks in my left knee. I'm hoping to do a Turkey Trot next month and run at least half of it.
I may not have control over the future or what will happen tomorrow but this I can handle.